My Thoughts For the Day

Will it ever happen for us?
Will I ever be able to carry a baby?
Will I ever be able to experience what every mother gets to experience?
Will I ever know what it's like to take that pregnancy test and see those two pink lines?
Will I ever get to see the look on my husbands face when he finds out he's going to be a daddy?
Will I ever get to hear my baby's heart beating?
Will I ever get to see my baby on that monitor for the first time?
Will I ever get to see my belly growing knowing, it's growing because my baby's in there?
Will I ever get to go through labor?
Will I ever get to hold my baby for the first time?
Will I ever get to see my husbands face light up in aw as he holds our baby for the first time?
Will I ever get to see my mom and dads face as they hold my baby for the first time?
Will I ever get to experience life as a mother?
Will I ever get to see my husband be a father and daddy?
Will I ever get to thank God for my miracle baby instead of praying for my miracle baby?
Can I even get pregnant?

God, Heavenly Father, We pray for a healthy happy baby. We trust in you that when the time is right, you will bless us with our bundle of joy.

Amen

Hello August

Well not much on the calender going on

except this month we have the one and only one for the year

And all the are starting up.

And I also want to wish a great friend a Happy Birthday!

I cut all my Hair Off

So I got gutzy the other day and I cut 12 inches off my hair. I cant believe I actually did it as I went back in forth for 2 weeks deciding if it was a good idea or not. Well I miss it, I cant say that I dont but I was so tired of always having to pull it back in ponytales. But I love it and it will grow back in no time, it always does.

More Doctor News Updates

Well this round didnt take I was prepared for that as I went to the Doctor on the 26th for my pregnancy test and later that day she called with negative results, so I started my cycle yesterday. I called the Doctor office today and informed them and the nurse says well we can fit you in for one more round, I said ok thats fine. Then she says wait let me talk to the Doctor and the receptionist and make sure we can with billing. She called back and said no it wont work. So I am now done with Dr. Wilbois. Doug and I talked about this the other night, we have 2 options. Option 1 is to go to the new Doctor I picked out, Dr. Ahlering or I can take sometime off from all the meds hopefully lose some weight and then go to the new Doctor in October/November when my other insurance kicks in and start IVF. I do have medince already filled for this month so I think I am going to take them according to the schedule he put me on and try it on my own and then if it dont work I am going to take September and October off from all meds and start over in Nov with the IVF process.

Date Night

So this weekend is a busy weekend. On Friday my best friend Amy is coming to stay at the house and we are going out. I wasn't sure where to take her so I decided dinner and then maybe Wild Country for $1 bottles and Country music. It should be a great time! Then on Saturday Doug and I are going to make it a day of just us. I wasn't really sure where to go that day so I suggested the Science Center since I haven't been there in years. He said that was a good idea. Then later we will head to dinner and a movie. Doug and I both want to see that new movie Despicable Me, it looks so funny. Then after dinner I'm sure we will end up somewhere or we may just go home, we may be tired it will be a long day. I will post pictures soon of our weekend fun.

Update

Went to the Doctor yesterday for an ultrasound to see how my medicine is reacting and so far it looks good, everything is progressing esxactly the way it should. I will continue my meds until the 26th and then go back that day for a pregnancy test. Hoping and praying this round takes and if it dont we will try one more time with the meds.

Hello July

So this month will be a fun busy month and mainly outdoors, right where I wanted to be this summer. If you read back to a past post it was one of my goals this year.

We get to start off with This is always a good time, but you never know where we will be. A few times we went to the park and watched them set off fireworks there, its a pretty big show and they have rides and games. After that we head back to our house were family and friends come over and we set off the few we bought. Then other times we are down at the farm having a trash can dinner and for everyone that dont know what that is, it is where you cook any vegetable and meat you like or want in a trash can sounds strange but It will be one of the best meals you will ever eat. Then after dinner when it gets dark, all the men get together and go down to the end of the lake and set off about $1000 dollars worth of fireworks that everyone pitched money in for. After the fireworks are done we get a poker game or two going.

July 16-18 Huzzah Valley Float Trip Time!

Last year was Doug and I's first time going but the group we go with go ever year. This was a great drunked time. But I pray this year its a hot summer day, last year it was so freaking cold you couldnt even get in the water. And poor Doug last year two of the guys in our group tumped their canoe and when they did they lost all the beer in the cooler so Doug jumped from our raft and swam over to help them. You cant loose beer thats a big party fowl in our group. After Doug finished retrieving everything, he had to swim a mile to catch back up with our raft. This wasnt my fault I tried to tell Scotty to stop and wait for Doug but he insited to keep going that Doug will be just fine. This year Doug and I decided no raft we are getting a canoe like everyone else. Also we are hoping this year come this time my first IUI cycle works and I am pregnant while we are there. I know that means NO drinking but I am ok with that. Last year while we were there Jenn was prego and she said this year she is passing it on to me. I told her I will gladly except.

Also in July we should have lots of BBQ's,

Our house, Johnny's house, maybe Johnnys brother Billys house,

wherever I just know its that time of the year.

And you cant go wrong with BBQ.

And lastly if my IUI cycle dont work in June will be trying one more time in July. Then its off to a new Doctor and to start IVF. We find out the results if Im pregnant or not on the 26th.